Lost & Found by Lori L. Otto

Lost and Found: Book One of the Emi Lost & Found series


Independent and sensitive, idealistic and hopeful, Emi Hennigan lives her life with optimism and an open mind. Between sharing a tiny Manhattan apartment with her fun-loving roommate and spending most of her free time with her heart-breaker friend, Emi’s seen enough failed relationships to know what to avoid in her quest to find her true love. Not only that, but a single moment from her past lingers in her mind, setting high expectations for every man she dates. 

Emi’s best friend, artist and hopeless romantic Nate Wilson, has been her closest companion all of their adult lives. After swearing off love with Emi in a silly high school pact, Nate has been seeing other women in hopes of finding one that evokes stronger feelings than the ones he’s been harboring for Emi since he was a teen. Over the span of a year, boundaries are crossed, feelings are confessed, and their unique friendship begins to blossom into something more. 

Through Nate’s eyes, an atypical romance unfolds, disrupting the comfortable safe haven their friendship has provided. With a promising future ahead of them both, fate intervenes to bring two soul mates together.


*This review contains spoilers*
I have heard such wonderful things about this series so I was quite excited to start reading Lost and Found. It seems like everyone loved Nate, but I really just did not like him. He is not...he thinks he is in love with Emi and treats the other women he dates not so good because of it, but he just...I really don't think it would ever really work out between them. I didn't like Emi at times either, but since this is from Nate's point of view so you don't get her side. I can still identify more with her though. Really I identify with this whole story as it is similar to my life. I had a best friend who I loved, but not like that. I knew he liked me as more than friends, and we did try and date for a bit but it ultimately didn't work out. It didn't work for me and I don't it wouldn't have worked long term for Emi, at least if Emi had not gotten pregnant. Well I don't know that they will no longer be together in future books, the ending a little cryptic, but it just doesn't seem like she is all in like he is. She is not sure of them as a couple which, knowing him as long as she has, she should be a little more with him if this is really a soul mate situation. I know Nate thinks so, but I really just did not like him.

Nate has always had a thing for Emi, but they had agreed to be just friends. He dates lots of women, telling all of them he loves them, when really he doesn't even know what love means. He gets the 21 year old virgin, Sam, to have sex with him by telling her he loves her. He leads her on and it really is just not cool for me. At least be honest with her! Whenever he is not around her, when Emi asks if he loves the Sam, his reply? I could. That is always the reply. He tells them he loves them, but then he always thinks well I could love them. That is just...I found he was kind of a jerk. He complains at one point about how much Sam talks and she doesn't even talk about things he is interested in. The way he said it it was just like why are you even with her? Just using her for sex? How awesome. I mean we get the whole story from Nate's point of view and well...even if Emi did love him like that I would still think she is way too good for Nate.

Nate also never tells Emi that the kiss, the kiss that makes Emi feel something different, the kiss that she keeps searching for this entire time, wasn't from Nate. She had kissed some other guy before she kissed Nate and she didn't remember. Nate never tells her this because "finding out the truth would have meant there was no hope for me in the end. And I wanted to hold on to hope." Great guy that one. So how honest in general would he be with Emi? If there is a chance that it would mean he wouldn't be with her ever what would he keep from her? He knows she is searching for this thing, but yet he is not willing to help. If he loves her as much as he says he does shouldn't he want her to be happy? When they do get together he realizes that he is still super selfish. He keeps thinking of himself and not Emi. They have sex in the jacuzzi tub and he doesn't even pay attention to Emi and her wants and needs. Yes, he loves her so much. So much he is completely selfish and doesn't think of her. Well after that he realizes this and does try and change, but I just don't like him. Oh and when he realizes they had sex without protection because he was too caught up in the moment to listen to what Emi was saying she mentions the morning after pill. His reply? He doesn't like the idea of being safe and not getting pregnant. Yeah a real winner there. Note: I just finished the second book and there is more religion talk in there. Maybe the author thinks the morning after pill is an abortion pill? I don't know...Glad he is such a great guy...I really don't know why everyone loved him.

Now Emi...I don't really think Emi really loved him like he loves her. She is conflicted. She doesn't want to lose Nate, but she doesn't know that this will work out long term either. She doesn't want to start something that will end with them not speaking to each other anymore. As I said before I identify with her. I did the same with my best friend after years of friendship. They already had a time apart when Nate, in another oh so great move, chose his insecure awful girlfriend over his best friend of twelve years. Yeah, a winner. Why did he listen to this girl? How could he just ditch his best friend like that? I don't care if you are in love with Emi, how is that any way to treat your supposed friend? Can you tell he annoyed me? Anyways Emi and Nate talk once he gets back to New York and he realizes that "the fear of losing 'us' drove you to me, but it also kept you away from me." Yeah, it was the fear of losing him, the fear of not having him in her life at all, that made he want to give it a go. That is not really, in my mind, what you want. That is not the soul mate love that the book keeps trying to tell me they have. It is not ideal. She should want to be with him because she wants to be with him. This is why I just don't see it working out forever. It just...it wasn't this great love story for me. It just felt all wrong to me from the get go. I didn't see the amazing connection between the two. I saw Nate thinking he is in love with Emi, and Emi giving it a go because she is afraid she is going to lose her best friend. I hope the next book is better, depending on what happens since the ending of this is cryptic, maybe she will end up with the other guy. The kiss guy. The one she felt something for. The one, without even knowing him or anything other than that one kiss, she should be with. He seems like he could be her soul mate. I know I knew my husband was it for me as soon as I saw him. So maybe I am just projecting my own life on this story, but to me if she really felt that something, that thing she has never felt with anyone else, well hopefully he will be it for her. Hopefully she will make her way to him through the next book. They seem like they belong together without even knowing anything about him. I just never felt like Nate and Emi were right together. We shall see.

Rating: 2/5

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