On My Knees (Bridge #1) by Meredith Wild
Haunted by the responsibility of caring for her troubled family, Maya Jacobs gave the only answer she could when Cameron asked her to marry him. Years later, entrenched in a soulless professional routine, she distracts herself from the lingering regret of her decision with a “work hard, play hard” lifestyle that guarantees no man will ever find his way into her heart again.
Cameron Bridge has spent the past five years married to the military, trying to escape the painful memory of losing Maya. After fighting his own war in the desert, he starts a new life in New York City, with his siblings, Olivia and Darren, by his side.
When fate brings Maya back to him in the heart of a city filled with its own hopes and shadows, can Cameron find the girl he once loved in the woman she’s become?
On My Knees started off great and the story hooked me right away, though I will say I never understood Maya. Still a good read.
Maya and Cam used to be a couple. But then things ended in a bad way. It hurt Maya so so much. That was the first thing I didn't understand - why Maya turned down Cam that first time. I know I was told something like people don't do this so I can't, but that didn't make a lot of sense. Maya didn't seem to care what people think so why would that stop her? It takes a long time and a lot of drama to get to the bottom of it and see what really happened. As a result of being hurt she keeps herself numbed as best she can. She drinks a lot, she parties a lot, she does whatever she can to just get by without attachments. She doesn't want to be hurt again. There were a few other things that happened that didn't really read as true, that were written in ways I didn't understand or made me think it didn't actually happen, so Maya was a bit of an odd one for me. I never understood her.
A few years later Cam and Maya end up in the same place again. And they start to come together again, only Maya is so hot and cold I really felt for Cam. He was an angel. Always there for her, supporting her, no matter what she threw at him. I really loved how much Cam cared about Maya. How he wasn't willing to step aside and let her hurt herself. Maya definitely needs to talk to someone to try and figure out her demons, but Cam wanted to be there every step of the way.
Even though I didn't understand Maya and there were parts that felt off for me, I still enjoyed the story. Maya and Cam were sweet together, he knew what he wanted even if she tried to pretend she didn't. They worked. Plus their fights were kind of hot.
Rating: ★ ★ ★1/2